I get on stage and I call her by her first name

Tried to stay away but I always meet her back at this place

She gives me everything

I feel no pain

I break down, get up, and do it all again

Because it's never enough and she makes me feel loved

I can come here and scream as loud as I want

Everybody dance

Everybody sing

Everybody move

Everybody scream

Here I don't have to be quiet

Here I don't have to be kind, extraordinary, normal all at the same time

But look at me run myself ragged, blood on the stage

But how can I leave you when you're screaming my name

Screaming my name

But I will come for you in the evening, ragged and bleeding

Shaking my gold like a tambourine

A bouquet of brambles, all twisted and tangled

I'll make you sing for me, I'll make you scream

Everybody dance

Everybody sing

Everybody move

Everybody scream

Here I can take up the whole of the sky

Unfurling, becoming my full size

Look at me burst through the ceiling

Aren't you so glad you came

Breathless and begging and screaming my name

Screaming my name

Everybody jump

Everybody sing

Everybody move

Everybody scream

Everybody shake

Put down your screen

Everybody up

Everybody scream

The witchcraft, the medicine, the spells and the injections

The harvest, the needle, protect me from evil

The magic and the misery, madness and the mystery

Oh what has it done to me

Everybody scream

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I crawled up from under the earth

Broken nails and coughing dirt

Spitting out my songs so

You could sing along oh

And with each bedraggled breath I knew I came back from the dead

To show you how it's done

To show you what it takes to conquer and to crucify

To become one of the greats

One of the greats

I kept a scream inside my chest

Killed everyone I'd ever kissed

Hung them on the wall like trophies

Each name a stain upon my lips

I told the truth but could never see it through

You see yourself hung on the wall but that song is not about you

I wrote down all my fumbling visions transmitted by a television

Got everything I thought I wanted and cried hungover in a hotel closet

Did I get it right?

Do I win the prize?

Do you regret bringing me back to life?

Arms outstretched back from the dead

Streetlights bursting overhead

Arms outstretched back from the dead

Streetlights bursting overhead

I did my best, tried to impress, my childhood dream made flesh

And my dresses and my flowering sadness, so like a woman to profit from her madness

I was only beautiful under the lights

Only powerful there

Burned down at 36

Why did you dig me up for this?

Arms outstretched back from the dead

Streetlights bursting overhead

Arms outstretched back from the dead

Streetlights bursting overhead

You'll bury me again, you'll say it's all pretend

That I could never be great being held up against such male tastes

Because who really gets to be one of the greats, one of the greats

But I've really done it this time

This one is all mine

I'll be up there with the men and the 10 other women in

The 100 greatest records of all time

It must be nice to be a man and make boring music just because you can

Now don't get me wrong, I'm a fan, you're my second favourite front man

And you could have me if you weren't so afraid of me

It's funny how men don't find power very sexy

So this one's for the ladies

Do I drive you crazy?

Did I get it right?

Did I get it right?

Do I win the prize?

Do you regret bringing me back to life?

Did I get it right?

Do I win the prize?

Do you regret bringing me back to life?

Arms outstretched back from the dead

Streetlights bursting overhead

Arms outstretched back from the dead

Streetlights bursting

Too feminine to function

A pile of bodies and a trail of destruction

I will let the light in

I will let some love in

I will be happy

It will be perfect

I will let the light in

I will let some love in

I will be happy

It will be perfect

I will let the light in

Arms outstretched back from the dead

Streetlights bursting overhead

Arms outstretched back from the dead

Streetlights bursting overhead

Arms outstretched back from the dead

Streetlights bursting overhead

Arms outstretched

Arms outstretched

Streetlights bursting

Overhead

Overhead

Streetlights bursting

Overhead

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Open my legs

Lie down with death

We kiss, we sigh, we sweat

His blackberry mouth stains my nightgown

I pull him close, wrap my legs around

And it tastes like life

I twist, I bite

The foxes chatter in the night

Show me the way

This feeling leads

The ache

The kick

The need

Show me the way

This feeling leads

The ache

The kick

The need

A shimmering landscape

Widen my eyes

Can I keep all this beauty

Forever inside?

Tear off my nightgown

And run naked through the town

Run through rain, run through fog

Taking consolation, cats and dogs and things that cannot speak

I ran to the ancestral plane but they all showed up drunk and insane

When I asked what I could offer them

They said gin and tonic or lithium

I asked which way should I go

And through cigarette smoke they said

Child how would we know?

Show me the way

This feeling leads

The ache

The kick

The need

Show me the way

This feeling leads

The ache

The kick

The need

Desire beyond reason

A ruinous thing

A stranger came to my door

And I welcomed him in

My feet are bleeding

And I cannot stop

I have many, many miles yet to cross

And I came to a clearing full of wailing and keening

A well of tears that never runs dry

The women said we have been waiting

Waiting to meet you

It's only a matter of time

Thrust my fists in the ground

And the earth made a moaning sound

I could feel something shudder

Deeper

Deeper down

And I met every monster from the bar to Broadway and all their violent offers

I just turn them away

And your threats and your promises they don't scare me

After all there's nobody more monstrous than me

Than me

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Memory fails me, names and faces blur

There is only after or before

Am I so different?

Have I changed?

I do not recognise my face

The scar fades, it pulls inside tugging at me all the time

Chewing on a feeling

And spitting it out

Crouched in a ballgown

Anxious and ashamed

The vague humiliations of fame

I do not find worthiness a virtue

I no longer try to be good

It didn't keep me safe, like you told me that it would

So come on tear me wide open

A terrible gift

Let the chorus console me

Sympathy Magic

And a light coming in the window just so

And the wind through my fingers

The only God that I know

And it does not want me on my knees to believe

Head high, arms wide

Aching, aching, aching and alive and alive

So I don't have to be worthy

I no longer try to be good

It didn't keep me safe like you told me that it would

So come on tear me wide open 'til I'm losing my mind

'Til I cannot contain it

La da la da da da da

So come on, come on I can take it

Give me everything you've got

What else, what else, what else, what else

So come on, come on I can take it

Give me everything you've got

What else, what else, what else, what else

Sympathy Magic, Sympathy Magic

So come on, come on, I can take it

Sympathy Magic, Sympathy Magic

So come on, come on, I can take it

Come on, come on, come on, come on

Sympathy Magic

Come on, come on, come on, come on

Sympathy Magic

So come on, come on, come on, come on

Sympathy Magic

Come on, come on, come on, come on

Sympathy Magic

Come on, come on, come on, come on

Sympathy Magic

Come on, come on, come on, come on

Sympathy Magic

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Perfume and milk

The body in bloom

The falling leaves

The fallen fruit

The rot and the ruin

The earth and the worms

The seasons change

The world turns

The trees turn grey and the land turns brown

In a house in the woods on the edge of town

Bury it deep, swallow it down

Taking the herbs, a laurel crown

Doing the work and sleeping alone

Downloading Revelations of Divine Love on my phone

Trying to read but getting distracted

Trying to live but feeling so damaged

And all shall be well, all shall be well

Miracles are often inconvenient

And a prayer is a spell

I packed my bags and I got in the car

A pilgrimage to wherever you are

April comes with its blossoms beaten by rain

Oh the hope and the horror singing daffodils again

The land it thaws, and the leaves turns green

And the blue stars of snow glories with the winter jasmine

Clothes of silk and satin, lace and leather

The one pink ribbon that holds me together

And all shall be well, all shall be well

Miracles are often inconvenient, and a prayer is a spell

And now I am changing, becoming something else

A creature of longing, tending only to myself

Licking my wounds

Burrowing down in a house in the woods on the edge of town

Well healing is slow

It comes and it goes

A glimpse of the sun then a flurry of snow

The first green shoots and a sudden frost

Oh something is gained when something is lost

The rot and the ruin

The earth and the worms

The seasons change

The world turns

The world turns

Perfume and milk

The body in bloom

The falling leaves

The fallen fruit

The rot and the ruin

The earth and the worms

The seasons change

The world turns

The world turns

The world turns

The world turns

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I wanna call you on the telephone

I made a thousand people love me

Now I'm all alone

And my resolve is sinking like a stone

What would I even say

I guess it's something that just never goes away

A crowd of thousands came to see me

And you couldn't reply for three days

Cos I'm stupid and I'm damaged and you're a disaster

When you walk into the room

Oh none of it matters

Oh baby I just buckle

My resolution in tatters

Cos I know it won't work but make it ache, make it hurt

Keep me a secret

Choose someone else

I'm still hanging off the buckle on your belt

The buckle on your belt

The buckle on your belt

The buckle on your belt

And you close the door and leave me screaming on the floor

Oh baby I just buckle

I can't take it anymore

I let you walk all over me honey

You make me think my therapy is a waste of money

Drinking it down

Haunting your city

Falling for anyone awful who tells me I'm pretty

I blocked your number but you didn't notice

Oh god I thought I was too old for this

I should be over it

I'm much too old for this

But I'm not over it

Cos I'm stupid and I'm damaged and you're a disaster

When you walk into the room

Oh none of it matters

Oh baby I just buckle

My resolution in tatters

Cos I know it won't work but make it ache, make it hurt

I'm not better than this, show me what I'm worth

Keep me a secret

Choose someone else

I'll still be here, hanging off

I'm hanging off the buckle on your belt

Buckle on your belt

Buckle on your belt

Buckle on your belt

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Sometimes my body seems so alien to me

I quiet it down by watching tv

Grow restless and grow hungry

As the water rises up around me

You come on screen

So good looking it's obscene

I put my fist into my mouth and scream

Some things it seems are catching up with me

And as it rises to my chin

I should really stop watching

And as I reach for the remote

It is rushing down my throat

I let it in

I start to swim

I grow many arms and legs

And then I start to sing and

All of my peers they had such potential

But the swamp it took them down

And my love I have to tell you

I kissed them all and let them drown

Oh you didn't see me

Just another drunken groupie

So when your hand reached out

I just pushed you further down

Well do you see me now?

Do you see me now?

Do you see me now?

A creature from the deep

Do I haunt you in your sleep

My tentacles so tender as I caress your cheek

Did you know how big I would become

And how much I would eat

So glamourous and ravenous as I drag you off your feet

There's nothing you can do

Some things it seems are catching up with you

Do you see me now?

Do you see me now?

You said I would be nothing

But look I'm really something

Many arms around the mast as your ship starts cracking

Well you've seen through the pain

Have you changed? Well so have I

As I fix you in the gaze of my one unblinking eye

Well do I terrify?

And all of my peers they had such potential

The swamp it took them down

My love I have to take

I kissed them all and let them drown

You didn't see me

Just another drunken groupie

So when your hand reached out

I just pushed you further down

Well do you see me now?

Do you see me now?

Do you see me now?

Do you see me now?

Do you see me now?

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And the old religion

Humming in your veins

Some animal instinct starting up again

And I am wound so tightly

I hardly even breathe

You wonder why we're hungry for some kind of release

So tired of being careful

So tired of being still

Give me something I can crush

Something I can kill

A lightning strike

A fallen tree

And I'm afraid

Oh don't let it find me

But you can't outrun

Yourself you see

And I'm powerless

Oh don't remind me

And it's the old religion

But the urge remains the same

Freedom from the body

Freedom from the pain

And it's your troubled hero

Back for season six

When it's at its darkest, it's my favourite bit

And I am wound so tightly

I hardly even breathe

You wonder why we're hungry for some kind of release

Watch me crawl on hands and knees

And scratch at the door of heaven

A lightning strike

A fallen tree

And I'm afraid

Oh don't let it find me

But you can't outrun

Yourself you see

And I'm powerless

I know, don't remind me

And it's the old religion

Humming in your veins

Some animal instinct

Starting up again

And I am wound so tightly

I hardly even breathe

You wonder why we're hungry for some kind of release

A lightning strike

A fallen tree

And I'm afraid

Oh don't let it find me

But you can't outrun

Yourself you see

And I'm powerless

Oh don't remind me

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Through bramble and briar

Under ash and oak

I went to find the hidden folk

They gave me gowns and riches

Cut gold thread with their teeth

Every night I went to see them

No I did not sleep

And every cup they brought to me

Oh you know I did

Drink deep

Drink deep

My eyes began to hollow

My skin began to fade

What I thought was a night, was a thousand years

What I thought was a sip, was a thousand tears

But still they said drink deep

Drink deep

But the thread that they spun

Was a woman's hair

And the gowns stitched from her tenderest flesh

And the cup that they brought up to my lips

I realised I drank of myself

Yes it came from me

It was made from me

Still I drank deep

Still I drank deep

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In every book in the house, notes from you fall out

All the love that came my way

I found a way to push away

I don't wanna be afraid anymore

I don't want to run from love like I had before

And on the way to couples therapy

You put your headphones in

So you didn't have to talk to me

Listening to our own demos on the ride home

You have a bigger ego than you think you do

Slide down in my seat so as not to threaten you

Let it be us

Let it be home

Falling asleep and not looking at our phone

Cos I know how to fall in love

I do it constantly

I fall in love with everyone I meet for 10 minutes at least

But then comes the work, the resentments and the hurt

Picking at your haircut and that stupid band t-shirt

Always thought I was nice, I thought I was kind

Until I tried to do something that was almost real life

It's not like what I've seen in TV shows

It's not like what I've read in books

It's so much harder than it looks

And there isn't much applause

If it required practice, dedication

I just got bored

We discussed something called compromise

A brand new concept that I never tried

Let it be us

Let it be home

Falling asleep and not looking at our phone

Because I know how to fall in love

I do it easily

I fall in love with everyone I meet for 10 minutes at least

But then comes the work, the resentments and the hurt

Picking at your haircut and that stupid band t-shirt

Breaking my bones, getting 4 out of 5

Listening to a song by The 1975

I thought fuck it

I might as well give music by men a try

Let there be love

Let there be light

Let there be a quiet day and an easy night

Let me put out a record and have it not ruin my life

Let it be us

Let it be home

Let it not be a spotlight standing alone

Running back to the only love I could ever control

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I sit in salt water

Call in a vision of my daughter

Light a candle

Place my grief upon the altar

Bird in my hands

A flower, a song

I used to think I knew what sadness was

I was wrong

A piece of flesh

A million pounds

Am I a woman now?

The crescent moon

An apple sliced

Fig in the sky

The air smells of fruit and smoke

The season is ripe

I stay in the house

Move the furniture about

Try and control what I can

And feel the world slip through my hands

You can have it all

You can have it all

Dug a hole in the garden and buried a scream

And from it grew a bright red tree

Shining with jagged leaves

And when the wind blows you can hear it

Dug a hole in the garden and buried a scream

And from it grew a bright red tree

Shining with jagged leaves

And when the wind blows you can hear it

You can have it all

You can have it all

A piece of flesh

A million pounds

Am I a woman now?

Tree grows tall

Can't cut me down

Am I a woman now?

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And love was not what I thought it was

It crept up on me despite myself

And it was not a love song

It was something else

More like surrendering to something

And more like resting than running

Peace is coming

Peace is coming

Peace is coming

Peace is coming

And love was not what I thought it was

More like an animal crawling deep into a cave

Than a romance novel heroine being swept away

More like surrendering to something

And more like resting than running

Peace is coming

Peace is coming

Peace is coming

And love was not what I thought it was

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